Dear diary,

I’m so confused…are my parents getting back together? Do they even love each other? Are we going back to Paris? How do I feel about that? Do I even want that anymore? Everything is all upside down inside and out. What’s worse is when I was actually able to spend time with Hugo and cuddle up next to him and tried talking to him about all this, HE FELL ASLEEP! I’m pouring my guts out to his snores!

I feel so alone again…maybe I’m meant to be alone…

Juliette

Biggest fears:

Being stuck in hell
Needles
Rats
Reliving 2007’s hairdo
Letting Hugo slip away
Dying slowly and painfully
Calculus
Getting fat
CHILDREN

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Everything is all topsy turvy. My life feels like such a mess right now…there’s no where to go and no on I can really talk to. I love the feeling of chaos yet scared of it at the same time.
What do I do?

Juliette

Dear diary,

As repulsive as the sound of my parents fucking down the hall is, I can’t help but think of Hugo and that night together. I remember wanting it but being terrified at the same time. And once I felt that sharp pain between my legs and the feeling of him in me and laying there crying out “What do I do?! What do I do?!” I panicked so much Hugo had to cover my mouth so I wouldn’t wake anyone up. But after the shock, it wasn’t bad. For some reason we never did it again because I was nervous about it, but now I’m having a change of heart. I want to do it again. I want to try different things. People say nothing is ever like the movies, but Hugo’s always up for a challenge. And so am I.

I’m also thinking about Darrell. He’s missing a few brain cells (more than a few actually) but I’m curious as to what he’d be like compared to Hugo. Let’s face it: the boy screams VIRGIN. I was the virgin last time. What would it be like to be on the other side of the fence for once?

Juliette

Dear diary,

Let’s add another reason to hate this place: hearing what goes on between my parents. I don’t remember ever walking in on them in Paris. There was too much distance in our house to actually have a clue what went on in their bedroom, but with these paper thin walls…ewwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!

Juliette